Testament of a Ssangyong union worker

Now it's almost a month after dismissal of Ssangyong strike. Police choppers bombared workers with plastic bag full of tear gas concentrate, and all those non-lethal weapons including taser gun, steel clubs, rubber bullet guns were used. Police chief promised that there be no vendetta, but a worker in investigation tried to take his life in face of the coercion from police. He left a final word, and it was released yesterday.

His testament was written in Korean, and is published in:
http://www.ohmynews.com/NWS_Web/view/at_pg.aspx?CNTN_CD=A0001202799

Here I write my thoughts. I feel so dazed and heart pounds so hard that I cannot do anything. When I hear buzzing of fans or that of air conditioner, I hear choppers that were around my head. Lost all my appetite and cannot sleep, awoke twice or more, every night. I don't know what to do.

Detective *** calls me time to time and asks me, "Did you have a word with ***?", "Can three of us meet and have a nice conversation?", "Man with balls should get around." Can a man who betrays his colleagues get together with detective and have a drink? I feel like dying. I plan to die. That's the only way to compensate.

Now telephone rings. It's A. Heart pounds again.

Now I had a last conversation with ***. I told him(her) that I love him(her). I told him(her) that I love *** and ***. Now I no longer have to go there to be investigated. Were it not for detective ***, things didn't have to go this far.


My beloved comrades.

I sold my comrades. I'm sorry. Detective C from Gyeonggi province police, who took my case, is a fiend. But I am also a fiend, too. I was stupid to believe detective ***. The words he said, that he will let me live, let me have my job back, that he can get me out here, that I did nothing wrong and leaders who drove you into this are to blame, that I can be perfectly clean if I testify against them, drove me into this. I thought my family must be saved. I deserve to die.

I betrayed ***, *** and ***. I said what I haven't witnessed. That they shot a cannon, although I did not see they doing that, I told them so. It never crossed my mind that my selfish thought can lead to such a huge disunion. ***, ***, and ***, I am really sorry. Those three on my testimony is completely innocent.

Detective *** forces me, telling that "You have told us only 30% of what you know. So give them all up.", "If you speak nothing more, we cannot help you anymore." What a son of a bitch! I deserve to die, but *** deserves it, too.

When I go to toilet or have a cigarette, he says "more, more. That's the only way that I can help you. Come clean." When I go there 3 in the afternoon with a full pack of cigarette, I come out empty handed. He extorts me about 20 times a day.

Now they force me to persuade *** to blow, that *** must live, that *** will not be charged even if he made that cannon, that they plan to take who ordered it, that I should have a drink with *** and let him talk. I did not know that *** made that cannon, still less shoot it, and they force me to let *** confess. Detective *** is scum.

Now, this is the only way to compensate to my comrades.


I am sorry.

I love you.

Aug. 20. 2009 15:00
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